Warning: ludicrous, school-related rant ahead. Read at own risk.
Never in my life did I ever think getting enough money to go to Juilliard would be such a pain in the ass. But wow was I wrong. So yeah, I got my aid package the other day, and the grant gives me enough to afford to go; they even included a really nice loan package that basically covers all my living expenses, and I don't have to start paying a dime until after I graduate. So it's a pretty damn good deal, for a school in New York City, anyways. Problem: my top two teacher choices are pretty much out, Mr. Vardi thinks my third choice would be a bad idea for me, and beyond that, I have NO idea whom I'd work with. To top it all off, my Mannes situation is . . . well, still up in the air, and I STILL haven't heard from Stony Brook . . . and Juilliard needs to know by freakin' April 15th!
I of course realize the irony of being annoyed at a situation that's largely awesome . . . except it's kind of stressful, too. For instance, my parents are telling EVERYone that I got into Juilliard . . . I think a lot of people will be disappointed if I don't go. Which is an attitude I've been railing against for years, since there are so many great schools and amazing teachers out there that go largely unnoticed. While that's the sort of pressure I largely ignore, it's hard. I mean, from the moment you start music, you always hear that magic word: Juilliard! Some school that magically makes you into an amazing soloist, or something akin to that. I mean, I almost feel obligated to go, since I can afford to. But teacher trumps everything but money . . . but then again, unless Mannes shells out more, it'd be really tough to go there, even IF my top teacher choice eventually takes me.
So yeah, I still don't have any idea where to begin. Maybe if Stony Brook got off their ASSES and sent me some god damn INFORMATION I might have some IDEA what direction I might want to take. Instead I'm just sitting here feeling stressed because every minute that ticks by is one where some financial aid at Mannes might be drying up, or the studio of a really amazing teacher at Juilliard that I don't know about is filling up . . . sigh.
Ok, ludicrous rant over. It really is silly to complain about such fortune. But until I get this thing solved, it's gonna feel less like good fortune and more like a big headache.
Never in my life did I ever think getting enough money to go to Juilliard would be such a pain in the ass. But wow was I wrong. So yeah, I got my aid package the other day, and the grant gives me enough to afford to go; they even included a really nice loan package that basically covers all my living expenses, and I don't have to start paying a dime until after I graduate. So it's a pretty damn good deal, for a school in New York City, anyways. Problem: my top two teacher choices are pretty much out, Mr. Vardi thinks my third choice would be a bad idea for me, and beyond that, I have NO idea whom I'd work with. To top it all off, my Mannes situation is . . . well, still up in the air, and I STILL haven't heard from Stony Brook . . . and Juilliard needs to know by freakin' April 15th!
I of course realize the irony of being annoyed at a situation that's largely awesome . . . except it's kind of stressful, too. For instance, my parents are telling EVERYone that I got into Juilliard . . . I think a lot of people will be disappointed if I don't go. Which is an attitude I've been railing against for years, since there are so many great schools and amazing teachers out there that go largely unnoticed. While that's the sort of pressure I largely ignore, it's hard. I mean, from the moment you start music, you always hear that magic word: Juilliard! Some school that magically makes you into an amazing soloist, or something akin to that. I mean, I almost feel obligated to go, since I can afford to. But teacher trumps everything but money . . . but then again, unless Mannes shells out more, it'd be really tough to go there, even IF my top teacher choice eventually takes me.
So yeah, I still don't have any idea where to begin. Maybe if Stony Brook got off their ASSES and sent me some god damn INFORMATION I might have some IDEA what direction I might want to take. Instead I'm just sitting here feeling stressed because every minute that ticks by is one where some financial aid at Mannes might be drying up, or the studio of a really amazing teacher at Juilliard that I don't know about is filling up . . . sigh.
Ok, ludicrous rant over. It really is silly to complain about such fortune. But until I get this thing solved, it's gonna feel less like good fortune and more like a big headache.
posted by Nabir at 11:16 PM
2 Comments:
Hey, I complained about having to choose between eastman and Rice which was offereing me a big scholarship, and everyone was like, "what is there to think about?"
just FYI: I haven't got a single piece of paper from Stony Brook, I just know about my situation because the teacher called me to let me know.... it seems like it would be a way better school for you than Juilliard, but I can totally understand the pressure to go to the big name.
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